I have found that to keep from sinking back into the dark abyss called depression I have to do maintenance every day. Mornings start the battle, it would be easy to just pull the covers over your head and not put your feet on the floor.
Managing simple tasks seem to be overwhelming at times, you make something to eat, not really feeling that I want to, but, it is a matter of survival.
There are times when I see my doctor and ask if there are some meds that can be stopped, his answer is not that he can see. Well, the blood pressure is good, but, I leave his office feeling slightly defeated.
Getting the energy to do grocery shopping seems like a big battle field that I have to navigate. I ask myself, can I survive today without a panic attack. I get through the cashier’s line without any minor or major developments.
When I arrive home it feels as if I have worked a double shift at a factory. I grab a coffee and plop down on the couch to get a bit of rest.
Alcoholic Anonymous has the twelve step program, attending their meetings is a maor key in keeping their sobriety.
The out patient group at the Mental Health Wing in the Hospital is available, the battle is getting there. The bus service is so lacking. It was so helpful while there as a patient and having a safe place where you can unload your fears and anxiety is so great.
It is the same with a Christian’s spiritual life, it has to be maintain. Cannot allow the cares of life to overcome you. It is essential to always have the armour of God on.
Eph 6:10-18 KJV
10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.
11 Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.
12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness;
15 And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;
16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.
17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:
18 Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;
Yes, every day is a battle, but it also is a opportunity to win and move forward on the battle field!
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