**Please do not be angry with the following statement”
If I was a believer in the Zodiac signs I would fall into line about the first trait listed. That is Virgos are ‘critical thinkers’. That is my one big hurdle, I tend to be very critical of myself.
When my grandfather passed away I took up being the pianist for my home church. It was on the job training. My mother told me years later that I have tell sign when I am frustrated, I would scratch the top of my head in an odd way.
As a teenager I would attend tent meetings of an evangelist that would come to our city every year. He had a team of singers and great musicians. I would often go home and laying on my bed would pray that God would allow me to travel like that with an evangelist.
Well one thing led to the other. I would practice for hour upon hour at my piano that was given to me. If I had any hope of my prayer coming true I would have to be perfect. In 1980 my prayer was answered when an evangelist asked me to join his team to be an organist for his crusades. I travelled with him across the length and breadth of North America. During that time I would ask the other members how I did.
Being critical is a trait of mine even at fifty-seven years old. I want things done just a certain way. When they seem to go off the rails I start being critical that I can’t do it right.
I not sure if that is one of my triggers, but, I have to think it probably is.
There are other examples that I could write about where I am just too critical of myself!