“Listen to the people who love you. Believe that they are worth living for even when you don’t believe it. Seek out the memories depression takes away and project them into the future. Be brave; be strong; take your pills. Exercise because it’s good for you even if every step weighs a thousand pounds. Eat when food itself disgusts you. Reason with yourself when you have lost your reason.”
― Andrew Solomon, The Noonday Demon: An Atlas of Depression
Memories, good, the bad, and the ugly. Some you want to keep forever for they remind of a time gone past that was warm, comforting, and full of love.
Then there are those memories you wish there was a way to erase, no totally delete them from the cobwebs in your mind. These are times that I would never want to experience again, or anyone for that matter to experience. I will call them my aching memories.
It is when I am depressed that these memories seem to float to the top of my thoughts. I try as I might, but, just cannot stop them from haunting me. I wake up with them, they are there when I have too much free time, and are there when I close my eyes at night.
Oh, there is medications that can suppress them for a period of time, but are there when the medication wanes.
So, all I have left is too try to raise those good memories and hope they give relief to my “aching memories”.