Coffee, Cigarettes, Pity Party

caffeine-close-up-coffee-coffee-cup-539432Life’s most underrated emotion is self-pity. Lionel Shrive
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During my worst depression which occurred after my suicide attempt in the morning all I would have is coffee and a cigarette.

While in treatment I came to realize that I was not alone immersed in the habit.  Along with that I big dose of self-pity.  Remember, this was before the phase of hospitals and public places banning smoking.  I have been admitted in two different hospitals and both had rooms for the smokers.close-up-photo-of-cigarette-247040 (1)

While having that smoke it felt like it was a contest to see who had the best pity story.  The issues were vastly different with each person.

I have now quit smoking. I now have coffee, but, I also have breakfast each morning.  Self-pity tries to rear it’s ugly head.  There are times I start to fall into that trap, mostly when I am alone and feeling lonely.  There are even moments when I think about having a smoke thinking how nice it would feel to soothe my jittery nerves.

So, I have learned that it seems that coffee, cigarettes, and pity-parties are great friends!

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  1. Angie

    I quit smoking in June 2017. Best thing I ever did for myself. I still love the smell of it and often (out of habit) find myself looking for my lighter when it’s time for a break. My anxiety and depression has got worse since I quit though but it’s a good thing because now I don’t have an excuse to escape and I’m “forced: to try and deal with whatever is bothering me at the moment. I still have pity parties, but I like to keep the party to myself most of the time since it’s easier for me to snap out of it and get back to reality.
    As for coffee…well I pretty much have it pumping through my veins LOL, it’s what keep me going 😀

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    1. Rethinking Scripture

      Yeah Angie, my coffee maker is always busy…lol

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  2. Halbarbera


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