“To share your weakness is to make yourself vulnerable; to make yourself vulnerable is to show your strength.” – Crissi Jami
Last night as I was laying in bed the word “Vulnerable” came to my mind.
To save this word, you’ll need to log in.Log Invul·ner·a·ble | \ ˈvəl-n(ə-)rə-bəl , ˈvəl-nər-bəl \
Definition of vulnerable1: capable of being physically or emotionally wounded2: open to attack or damage : ASSAILABLE vulnerable to criticism3: liable to increased penalties but entitled to increased bonuses after winning a game in contract bridge
I began to mull this over in my mind and several thoughts came into focus.
For most of my adult life I have been very closed to allowing anyone to get to close to me. I suppose I didn’t want to be hurt, or betrayed. In the past I have been both, hurt and betrayed.
I began to build walls to keep others out, but those same walls kept me from going out. It was like a bird in a cage. It’s movement is somewhat restricted.
It is terrible to go through life questioning everyone’s motive, distrust becomes a constant companion.
When I started this blog I didn’t write anything about myself, I did not want to make myself a target, I didn’t want to become vulnerable to attacks.
These past couple of years since I began writing about my struggles with mental health issues has been quite a revelation to me. I purposely made myself vulnerable, I opened my emotions to unknown readers, unknown people.
I have been amazed because what happened was nothing like the things I was thinking would happen didn’t. What I have found that ninety-nine percent of people are caring, understanding, thoughtful, warm. I was expecting negativity and instead I received positive. Becoming vulnerable was something that brought about good.
I truly understand those who are going through emotions about becoming vulnerable, afraid of criticism, mocking, and betrayal. Opening up by writing in a blog would not be my first choice to present myself as vulnerable.
So dear reader, just maybe open yourself up, make yourself vulnerable, take a chance. Like in the movie, one line comes to mind, “Baby steps, baby steps”!(What About Bob)