I began to mull this over in my mind and several thoughts came into focus.

For most of my adult life I have been very closed to allowing anyone to get to close to me.  I suppose I didn’t want to be hurt, or betrayed. In the past I have been both, hurt and betrayed.

I began to build walls to keep others out, but those same walls kept me from going out. It was like a bird in a cage.  It’s movement is somewhat restricted.

It is terrible to go through life questioning everyone’s motive, distrust becomes a constant companion.

When I started this blog I didn’t write anything about myself, I did not want to make myself a target, I didn’t want to become vulnerable to attacks.

These past couple of years since I began writing about my struggles with mental health issues has been quite a revelation to me.  I purposely made myself vulnerable, I opened my emotions to unknown readers, unknown people. 

I have been amazed because what happened was nothing like the things I was thinking would happen didn’t. What I have found that ninety-nine percent of people are caring, understanding, thoughtful, warm.  I was expecting negativity and instead I received positive.  Becoming vulnerable was something that brought about good.

I truly understand those who are going through emotions about becoming vulnerable, afraid of criticism, mocking, and betrayal.  Opening up by writing in a blog would not be my first choice to present myself as vulnerable.

So dear reader, just maybe open yourself up, make yourself vulnerable, take a chance.  Like in the movie, one line comes to mind, “Baby steps, baby steps”!(What About Bob)